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    Out of some unknown reasons, there is a rat, or maybe there are some rats, aound my apartment. LD told me some days ago and I had seen some evidence of its exitence during these days. Furthermore, I saw it today. Today when I heard some sound in the sitting room, I assumed it must be it. So I went quietly to check whether it is it or not. But when I reached the door of my room, it bloted away quickly. I just caught the sight of its back. It is quick and kind of "smart". I then understand that it is impossible for us to catch it. At that time I miss my cat.

    I once named my cat "quicker than lightening", for she was really quick when she was young. I remembered once when I slamed my door, then she suddenly came into my view. That moment I lost my breath, I thought I was to kill her. But she was quicker than the slamed door. After that I named her "quicker than lightening".

    My cat was born in my mom's bedroom. My mom, my cousin and I saw her be born. Her mom was our neighbour's cat. She usally went to our house. Dad was so kind to her that she just became our cat as if. So it gave birth to our cat in our house. After her giving to baby cats, our neighbour took her and the other baby cats home, while leaving our cat to us. She was the one resembling her mother the most. She was really a cute cat. I was a junior middle school student at that time. Since then she had been with our family, just like a part of our family.

    I remembered when I was a primary school student, I loved cats so much that I just slept with my first cat. Whenever she was not with me, I felt uneasy. Yet, she died on the third day of a spring festival because of having some poisonous rat. That night all of my families went to dinner. So did I. Yet, I went back earlier. When I got home, I heard she groaning in the bedroom. I called her through the window, she tried her best to climb up but maybe she hurt so much that she failed time and time again. I heard her body bumping against the wall. I was in a flurry. Even now I could recall how my heart trembled at that time. Then I went to my dad. When we went back and opened the door, Dad gave her some medicine. But it was just too late. I remember how sadly I cried then.

    "quicker than lightening" was my second cat. I was intimate to her so I was to my first cat. When winter came,  I would like to have her curled on my legs, which made me feel warm. I would touch her back while watching TV, doing my homework, chatting with my playmates......I forgot when. But when I got the information that cats were harmful to human beings, especially to females from some unknown magazine, I tried to estrange from her. She was just as usual at first. But I changed. At first, I would let her curl on my legs sometimes. As time goes by, as I became a college student from a middle school student, as I was away from home, as I made more and more friends,  I forgot that she was such a mate to me. So when she jumped to my legs when I was sitting, I would drive her away. She tried once and again, I drove time and time again. Then finally, she was disappointed. During 2003 to 2005, I was far away from home. I just came home once a year. When I got home I would greet her. So would she. Even though we didn't see each other for a long time. But  fortunately when I came home, I could know that she still missed me. So I sometimes was amazed at animal's personality. They are more of personality than human beings are. When I first came home after a year, she tried again to be intimate to me. But I disappointed her again. I took her as my mate, not an intimate mate any more.

    When I came back from the North.  I stayed at home for nearly half a year. We were like two parallels at that time. I seldom paid attention to her. Neither did she. We had a new family member in our family, my sister-in-law. Then we had another one--my nephew. We were so busy. Besides, my sister-in-law didn't like her very much. What's worse, when my nephew was born, she even hated her because pets were very harmful to babies, she held. "quicker than lightening" was old then. She was no more quicker than lightening. Though she could still jumped from the ground to the fence, from the roof of my uncle's house to the balcony of our house, she just became awkward. Apart from this, she was more and more particular about her food. To make matters worse, she was too lazy to catch rats and even leave her hairs here and there. I was a bit tired of her. I complained many times. And whenever she came into my bedroom, I would drive her away. I guess at last she was used to it. She must have had enought of my impersonality.

     On this National Day, I went home, didn't see her. So I asked about her. Dad told me that she had been disappearing since early this September. She must find her place to end her life. She even didn't "say" goodbye to us. She just knew that it was her time and then went to find her final place by herself. I felf so sorry for her and for me myself.

     I was once pet-loving but I changed. I felt guilty not being consistent in my love, which I felt that I had hurt her. Hope those who are pet-loving can love their pets forever. Don't make them disappoint at human beings.