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    奥运的热情再一次勾起我看球赛的热情.我也成了一个运动迷,成了一个篮球迷!

    男篮的每一传球,每一投篮都令我揪心.我的心因为每一次得分而颤抖,为每一次断球,好的传球而欢呼雀跃.虽然刚开始就预报说今天的球赛也应该是超越胜负地来看,可是当我们的球员用他们的出色表现给我们希望而又令我们失望之后,一些人惋惜了,一些人愤怒了...前一刻钟我们还在为他们欢呼雀跃,下一刻钟我们骂骂咧咧.不要怨我们的球员,因为他们尽力了;不要怨我们的球迷,因为他们期待了.他们只是真性情的球迷.

    很久没有这种感觉了.完全的神经绷紧.而当看到72:72时的最后一次失败,瞬间觉得塌了,看到加时赛球员们近似自暴自弃时,失望了;看到75:85时,一下子觉得很无力.整个人趴掉了.饭也吃不香了,其他人的话也没力气听,没力气反应,跟着骂不出来玩笑也笑不出来.当球迷原来是一件这么辛苦的事~~

    这种有了希望又失望的感觉真是令人难受.让我想起了招生中我上次犯的错误,还有太多太多的这种行为.汗颜!非常能理解考生,考生家长的心情,也在这里默默地表示歉意!

    今天小飞放假,我又一个人"独守空房".一开头就被人骂了两回.第一次因为别人的过错我当了替罪羔羊,忍了!第二次,那个家长从一拿起电话没三秒就开始抱怨开了,然后开始骂.我忍着脾气一直重复一句话试图安抚他的怒气.最后他一再的:"你们学校太不负责任了."一句:"早知道就不报你们学校了.以后再也不报你们学校了."让我忍无可忍,我又爆发了.说了一句:你可以选择不过来报到.让他说了一句:"你现在说这句话不是废话吗"啪地一声挂断了.

    随着嘟嘟声,我知道我又犯错了.就像店主跟顾客争执永远都是店主的错一样,我也应当承认是我们的错,然后低声下气.可是我没有.虽然只是一件很小的事情,家长也没必要小题大做,但是我不该如此.可以原谅他们的不应该,而我的不应该是不可原谅的.我想我是真的不适合干这个活了,因为我越来越不耐心,越来越不能能受气了.而这些是这份活必备的素质.为我的鲁莽,为我的脾气面壁!

    今天我结束了暑期的这份活,明天收拾下,后天回家了.回家后估计就是天天守在电视机前做一个彻头彻尾的运动迷.最近觉得最好听的歌是中华人民共和国国歌;最帅最美的是我们的奥运健儿们;最好听的话是中国加油;最热情的人是中国啦啦队;最好看的电视频道是中央一套,二套,体育频道;最经常浏览的网站是新浪奥运频道......

    PS:加油,男篮!加油,中国!

    August 8th, 2008. After work, I rushed to to Ling's. We raced through the supper and hurried to the bars. We had finally agreed on spending the historical moment in bars. Unfortunately we arrived too late to take the best seats. The bar which Ling liked and enjoyed a better atmosphere had no appropriate seats left. Thus we had to take alternative. It was an outdoor bar in a park near the sea. We sat inside.

    Two days ago when Ling asked where would I like to watch the ceremony, I had no idea at all. Frankly speaking, I even didn't think it was a neccesity for me to watch it. I had always not been current affairs-conscious. I seldom care about international and national affairs. When the countdown started, I could feel the passion within. During the ceremony I was touched many times. When our team showed up, we strained our throats to shout. And people in the bar were just the same. That was passion. I need the passion. It cheered me up. It inspired me. Then it keeps me go on. From then on I care about every match. And every match moves me. Whenever I see them, I hear them, I cannot help being excited. That feeling is the same as compassion that we had during Wenchuan Earthquake. They are spontaneous. They are spontaneous to us as Chinese.

    What worth mentioning is that today I bet to myself twice. The first one is about Zhang Lin. When the journalist interviewed him, I saw him I heard him. Then I said to myself: He can. I believe he can. Then he really made it. Though it was just a silver medal, it was just as important as a golden one, for it was the first time that men got a medal during swiming matches in the Olympic history. The second time is the basketball match between Liethuania and Argentia. Actually I was not aware of their situation at all since I never watch NBC. Yet I felt that Liethuania would win. I bet with Xiaofei. Finally they did.

    I have just finished watching the basketball match between USA team and ours. From the point of view of a layman as me, although there were some time that I felt disappointed, it was really a nice game. I enjoyed it very much.

    On the 8th night, we stayed up late. So on the 9th, I asked for one-day leave. We got up late, had lunch. And accidentally, I thought I should have my hair cut. Since I happened to be around. So we went to the barber's and asked the barber that we were quite familiar with to have my hair cut. Though we were quite familiar, it was the first time that he had my hair cut. Luckily it turned out to be quite nice. I was satisfied with it. Not so lady but like someone of ability and experience. Quite new, but to my liking.

    After the haircut, we went to the cafe. We sat down, ordered some drinks and cookies. Curled in the sofa, we read and chatted occasionally. That was life. I need it. I need to feel the passion, I need to feel the life. It is when I feel them that I feel that I still live, I still want to live and life is worth living.

    昨天，黄历上的立秋，社会上所谓的中国情人节，紫色情人节。

    立秋代表着秋天到了，表现为我开始大把大把地掉发，表现为皮肤开始发干，表现为我垫着床单睡而不会被热醒，呵~~~想起了老家的七月是一个祭祀的月份，大大小小的“拜拜”五六场的，对我们小孩来说，是个值得期待的月份。

    至于紫色情人节，对我来说不是节日。对没有情人的人来说，情人节应该都不是节日，而不是没有情人的情人节。若不是老师们提起，若不是是学生好友或短信或电话的祝福，我压根儿忘了这一茬。以往的些许期待，以往的一个个发送祝福的兴致全无。收到的两条信息挺有意思的。

    如果你不爱一个人，请放手，好让别人有机会爱她；如果你爱的人放弃了你，请放开自己，好让自己爱别人。有的东西你再喜欢也不属于你；有的东西你再眷恋也注定要放弃。人生中有许多种爱，但别让爱成为一种伤害。如果真诚是一种伤害，我选择谎言；如果谎言是一种伤害，我选择沉默......（FROM CL）

    能牵手的时候，请别只是肩并肩；能拥抱的时候，请别只是手牵手；能在一起的时候，请别轻易分开......(FROM NL）

    不同的人，不同的信息，不同的心声，不同的期许，不同的祝福......

    萍从香港回来，去她家把托她带的东西拿回来。女人真的是花不够的钱，从上到下，从里到外，从春天到冬天......

    电话慢慢地少了.随着招生的进度,电话从少到多,从多到少,反反复复.内容也是从询问希望多大,到什么时候开始,什么时候出结果,什么时候寄通知书等等.而我们的回答也从五级量表到再等等再等等之类的不痛不痒的废话.

    这几天出了些纰漏.先是我自己的,一个本不该打的电话却打了,造成了人家的误解,给人家希望却又让他失望.我的错误从实际上没有造成什么问题,但是从情感上却伤害了本来就脆弱的考生和家长的心理.那天反省了很久,就是想不通自认为细心的我怎么会犯那么低级的错误.然后就是一些比较严重的错误,庆幸的是凡事都有回旋的余地,都拨乱反正了.在那种高强度的情况下,犯些错误都可以理解.只是有时候一些错误可能改写了一些人的人生.

    每次期末改卷时,因为别人的错误让我不得不返工时我总是在心里不断地埋怨,然后还带点自以为是.想想自己的那副嘴脸真是有点汗颜.人都是会犯错误的.若是我犯了错误人家也是这么副嘴脸的话我估计我可能一辈子都无法介怀.而我怎会如此harsh.想起那天方老师只是安慰我说:没事,曾老师办事还是很认真的.张老师说:这样回答就没错呀.NL也说不是我的错.可是我的对待别人犯错的态度,真是的汗!我要学着宽容点,再宽容点!

    写下title,切题的又在后面,呵呵!看过一句话,是这么说来着.我们写信的时候经常是写了好几页,然后最重要的是最后的PS.PS,没有ZC的消息有一段时间.下午她Q我.蛮问了句说:有宝宝了吗?她居然回答有.我以为怀上.问几个月了.她居然说刚出月子,汗!只觉得有段时间没有联系了.上次聊天的时候问她打算什么时候生宝宝.而现在居然已经是当妈妈的人.怎么觉得工作后时间真的是在飞逝~~~

    29号晚上是一个不眠之夜。回家的路上我在心里默默地祈祷，希望FJ的可以出到481。看堂妹那样念书，那样执着我有点于心不忍。她应该得到回报的，要不然让人家怎么相信“一份耕耘一分收获”。庆幸的是上帝听到了我的祈祷。那天晚上我有在想像Darling那样笃信主的人幸福的。她觉得她是受到主的恩宠的，是主疼爱的孩子。做个主疼爱的孩子是幸福的。只是，那只是我一时的想法。没有那种信仰是信主应该是不对的，是对主的亵渎。不过还是很庆幸FJ的文科出到了481。

    30早上打陕西的，中午开始打FJ的，一直加班到晚上11点多。电话没有一秒钟闲过。一天下来打了1000多个电话。算算，一分钟一个电话的话，连续工作了快17个小时，马不停蹄地重复相同的话近17个小时。中间婶婶，叔叔，爸等打了几个电话，一会儿让我这样做那样做，然后还要让另一个人来教我应该怎么做。在这劳动强度下，我不耐烦地“吼”了几句。1号定下来了，跟婶婶汇报了下，没有听出婶婶的那种高兴或兴奋的语气。WJ那天也是短信的电话地催。我也没有办法很有礼貌地一一回复。想想这算个什么事，吃力不讨好的：担心得半死，办了事，然后自己还觉得抱歉。所以说我就是这么地不善于人情世故。

    从昨天开始就陆陆续续地有考生打电话查询是否被录取。几家欢乐几家愁！被录取的可能在听到的当刻高兴地在你的耳朵就开始吼：妈，我被录取了！！！而又有多少人在听到没有被录取的时候黯然伤神。一个家长说孩子一直在哭，这样会没命的没命的，一直一直地重复~~~说是有好几千人都要被“我们”害死了.....而今年FJ省上万人没有书念了.....

    这两天照样地一天近千的电话地接。过了这段时间就该闲了。然后完事回家。一个假期就这么地过去了。回过头想我的论文，我的课，我的卷子.....什么都没做。时间匆匆，太匆匆~~~

    萍今天出去去香港了，呵。托她买CLINIQUE和贝佳斯面膜，呵呵！