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    就在刚才，我鬼神神差地打开了我的博客。看了几篇，有点愣神。那么多年，我天天与它为伍的日子，我现在怎么说抛弃就抛弃。一年多了。人真的是很绝情的动物。物总是最可怜的。

    本来打算下决心明天开始写写日志的。可是，我知道我不一定做得到。做不到的事情就不承诺了吧。生活太累，何必再用承诺来束缚！

    记下这些没有意义。只是为了告诉博客，它是我的回忆，而我是一个有在回忆的人！

    Happiness lies in your heart. When it is raining, you find yourself enjoying it intead of being depressed.

    Happiness is that no matter how fully-occupied you are, you can still make some time to read a long-expected book which happens not to let you down. "Hawthorn Tree Forever" is not about the most pure love as I am led to expect, but about the great love which touches me a bit. I did enjoy the story.

    Happiness is that no matter how busy you are, you can still take time to hang out with your friends to a movie which may not be food for thought but entertaining enough for us to relax.

    Happiness is that you have tasted so much delicious food and there is still so much waiting for you. Japanese Cuisine from OOGUCHI, you never let me down. BAK KUT THE from JINJITANG is made of more than 10 kinds of traditional Chinese medicines. Having it, you can't help fancying that you are becoming more beautiful and healthy. The rice is also special if you have it with soy sauce. I have heard of it before. But you need to have a try by yourself. It won't disappoint you. All the ingredients are well prepared. I always like food which are prepared with heart even though it might not taste good. Let alone it is really amazing. BTW, the wooden tablewares can really calm you down in a way. Caramel Cheese from ADU does deserve its name. Smells like milk, touches like silk, tastes like happiness......Caramel and cheese match perfectly. Haagen Dazs icecream. That is on my must-eat list. Today I can tick it off. Not bad. But what makes you feel good is in the sweet smell of the shop, you find yourself so close to happiness.

    Happiness is when you end a tiring week, you are exhausted both physically and mentally. But you don't wanna be alone. And at this time you get a phone call from one of your best friends asking you for dinner and some kind of shopping. As you eat, shop and drive homeward, she keeps talking this and that. What you need to do is just listen. That is all that you need and that is all that you want.

    Happiness is even though you are single, you always have someone there to keep you company. You have meals together, you satisfy your need to talk especially trifles.

    Happiness comes when you see your complexion become better.

    Happiness is that your former students are still missing you and your class. They want to sit in your class once more. Even though you may don't wanna it, you are definitely thrilled at their thought.

    Happiness is that you get a present from a sweet boy. It is not the present that matters, but his willingness to share it with you does.

    Happiness is you get a phone call from your former students abroad. He just calls to say hi. One of my dreams is that many many many years later my students will still remember me and send their regards to show it from time to time.

    Happiness is evey time I step into the classroom my students are reading loud. It is not all my students and all the time, but students in two classes and most of the time. Yet I am content.

    P.S.: When you find that all happiness does not come from him, you doubt he is the one.

    秋天到了，凉！

    开课了，马不停蹄地忙开了。一忙就没空胡思乱想，胡言乱语，无病呻吟了。开课后，中秋，国庆随之而来，放假，补课，乱七八糟。好不容易，今天画上了句号。从下周开始，一切恢复正常。我也该静下心做下记录了。

    先说说学生吧。10届的学生总的来说比08届的学生“随性”。有学生还没见面，上课的第一天6点多就给我发短信问我第一节课该带什么书；有学生第一节课下课就过来闲聊了两句；有学生第一节课就质疑老师的安排；有学生第二次上课就敢迟到；还有学生回家就给我带柚子了......这次带的专业相对来说，没有上一次的专业积极。特别是听力课，不知道是真的听不懂还是低调，volunteer少得可怜，每次问得我都frustrated。可能是我太怀念08届的学生，还没习惯。改变战略，重新习惯！

    中秋博饼两场。延续历年的烂手气。从来都是没办法保本的。不知道是我排斥好运气，还是好运气排斥我。跟运气有关的事情很少跟我沾边。不过，每次女人帮聚会，大家都挺high，挺好的。那边博饼后安送我回来，还在半路爆胎，汗！PS：聪花终于决定not to let love pass her by and jump to catch the opportunity. 祝她幸福。也算实现了我圣诞节许下的半个愿望了。

    国庆本不想回家，爸妈一人一个电话把我CALL回去了。说实话回家也没啥事，不过没啥事不回家也说不过去。而且，爸妈的一人一个电话CALL得我有点伤感。纵然没有啥事，纵然没有回家的强烈欲望，爸妈还是希望放假我回家让他们看看，陪陪他们。

    XY的婚礼上碰到了WL和他老婆。坐车经过TEMY，想想去年跟今年，相隔一年，房价差距，那时候如果狠下心买了房子，现在怎么说也赚了。感慨。这一辈子，我都在马不停蹄地错过。错过爱情，错过婚姻，错过赚钱的机会，错过做好事的机会.......只是错过的注定会错过。纵然时光倒流，我还是做那样的决定，因为我终究是我，不甘心的我，不决断的我。

    一个朋友的回复让我想到，对于一个外语学习者来说，有时候英语是我们逃避的一种方式。逃避尴尬的局面，逃避真实的情感。

    台风来了，真的来了。南方是个多台风的地方，然后在南方生活了近三十年了，让我真正有印象的只有两场（其他的往往都是擦边而过。），凑巧地都在JM这个地方。

    第一次刚好大一。我们困在宿舍，宿舍貌似还进水了。那时YY任班长，还给我们送饭过来。至今还记得装饭的那个红色的学校发的桶。至今还记得那份感动。

    这次，昨天，大风刮了一天。然后，说是今天才要登陆。昨晚，听了一晚上的风声，门撞击哑铃的声音，重物坠落的声音，汽车的警报声，大树倒地压住房子的声音。一晚上不踏实，惦记着今天的课，为那几颗大树祈祷，起起趴趴几次，弄是到了六点多。没等着学院的短信，起来洗漱。短信就来了。停课！工作了这么多年第一次由于大自然的力量停的课。起来了，睡不着了，写了微博，还跟萍打了个电话交流，哈哈哈...登陆了Q，看学生的个性签名，挺有意思的。

    看了两部不错的影片。《初恋红豆冰》初恋的感觉，童年的回忆，很清新。阿牛的主题曲《纯文艺恋爱》不错。另一部《我的名字叫可汗》。有点Rainman和Forrest Gump的感觉，还掺杂了些9.11和religious discrimination，够深刻，够浪漫，够感人，够激励人......

    今年刚好第五年。带的第一批学生毕业。我也绕了一圈，回到了原点，带双学位。四年了，我心仍然为第一次课紧张紧绷。套用萍的话：第一次跟学生见面就像是相亲，有点期待又有点忐忑......然而，折腾了一番后，心情却难得地宁静。

    PS：那天整理东西也顺便把日志导出。发现写日志五年半了，访问量也破三万了。这么多年这么坚守下来，竟毫不知觉。有点细水长流（流水账）的感觉！

    想长篇大论来着，心有余而力不足。昨天居然又失眠了。没有激动兴奋，没有特别悲伤郁闷。可是就是失眠了。我在想，也许我的身体对情绪的觉察比我的意识对情绪的觉察敏感。最近好像睡眠质量都不好。改天去看看中医好了。

    这学期班级多，请产假的多，所以不结婚不生孩子的我被当男丁使了。美其名曰“骨干”。也就是要把我榨成皮包骨头的人干。带四个大班，一周24节课。对我来说是史无前例。半胁迫半诱惑下接受了。当然代课的事也就想都别想了。

    然后知道带的可能是工商。郁闷了一把。自己安慰自己一下，想开了。

    回来发现不是。可能要20节读写，4节听说。一下子火冒三丈，上串下跳。之后才知道还是老样子--18+8。四个专业：工商和会计双学位，车辆工程，电子。这种虚惊让我有点失而复得的幸福。明明是一样的情况，这么一折腾，我不自怜自艾，怨天尤人的，反倒觉得庆幸了。人有时候就是jian。

    工作以来实际意义上的第四个教师节。一个倍受祝福的日子。从睁眼的那一刻都是一个接着一个的祝福，满满的幸福。毕业的学生，带过的学生，朋友，家人......有学生大老远寄来礼物，有学生赶第一个和最后一刻送祝福，让人感动！不管多么辛苦，不管多么卑微，这是个能体现自我价值给我满足感的工作。

    周四girls' dinner在LZ的同学开的店吃的。地点有点隐蔽。菜式三星半。有个芋泥香酥鸭（不知道记对没，呵！）很不错。

    周五跟安及她客户在滨北的鹿港小镇吃的饭。装修很不错。大厅还有两个大屏幕放时装表演。菜式三星。挺简单的材料，味道偏淡些。价格还不便宜。有个麻油腰花，猪腰很嫩。很想知道人家怎么做的，呵呵~

    秋意渐浓，晚上睡觉不用风扇，盖着被单，报个枕头也不嫌热了。

    理论满分通过，嘿嘿~

    不知道还有啥漏汇报了。脑袋有点浑浑噩噩了。下咯，补觉去！